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Tuesday, January 18
Hiya peeps. It' s already some sort of my 3nd week in IJC... Quite fun overall. Actually. I dont know la. I just cant help but to feel... all sorts of weird feelings la. i dunno how to describe lo. but.. it's crappy la. i jus dislike having this kind of feeling la. noone to talk to lo.. kinda sad la... haiz. just did a survey. lolx it mentioned that i had a blue heart. it was absolutely correct on my situation now. lolx. depressed. and.. wad eh? forget le. cant be bothered to put it down here. Hmx. Wad else to say? I forget everything that i got in mind just now. My sis interrupted my flow of thinkings. =( Haiz. Everyday there's loads of work to be done. I can say that workload is two to three times more than secondary sch life. Saddening right? And there are lecture notes for us to read up.. And revise. Ya. We HAVE to REVISE. If not, im sure that next day in lecture, you will end up like a housefly buzzling about with no rest. Ya. That's why I busied myself to so many things. I tried hard. Not to think. But i just cant. Why why why... ? ... Haiz. Crapz. Yuppiex. Im going for shooting course tomorrow. I really want to get into the team la. Wish me good luck k? Lolx. I just need something to get it off my mind. Haiz. My class has a nice bunch of gals. The guys are just too quiet? Or just that they everytime m.i.a. except for kenneth? Lol. Maybe that's becos we same OG la. That's why la. Hahaz. Hmx. Hm.. I just wonder does she feels the same way as i do... ? Weird huh.. I wonder does she visits my blog... I don't know la. Zzz. I shallnt elaborate more. I just feel like crying la. But, I just couldnt. Everything is just trapped inside me, just like how the iodine molecules are trapped inside the helical structure of amylose. Because of this, it just stains everything blue-black. Just like my days. It makes my world grey. Thus, for every moment i spent in school. I try to get someone to be with me la... I just.. I dunno la. I know Im mean to be like that. =x Sorry. Lolx. At this moment now, I just hate being alone. But i think some breathing space is good too? Hm.. Wish that the school admin set up some quiet spots for studying ASAP. The canteen is like.. Crapz la.. So noisy. Haiz.... And you, cant you change ur phrase to something else rather than " tell u dun think too much le... " ... zzz.. Sorry. I know im being unreasonable. I am unreasonable. That's me. I know Im not being myself. Im being weird. Haiz.....
eneres _ _ _ * 6:19 PM
