Wednesday, March 31

ARGH... Tiaoz. spend 20minutes typing and my IE HANGED?!??!!? WHAT THE HECK.. Okiez.. Wadever. Tomorrow April Fool day leh!!! No plans for the time being.. hahaz... But nvm. hahaz. Why 1st of April is called April Fool? Cos it's a day for people to get FOOLED by others... LoLz.. It all depends whether u are the victim or the mastermind ..., hahahaha ... that's lame i noe.. But it ought to be FUN, Right? *winks* hahaz.

Hahaz, when walking home that time.. hahaz.. was with pearl... then in front of us is the couple lo... hahaaz.. the couple who loves to ta qing ma qiao in front of all of us de... lolz.. no offence la.. hahaaz.. they 2 funny one lo.. wadever.. hahaz... back to wad i saw. lolz. The moment they stepped out of the school gate, they were holding hands liao.. hahaz.. leonard so xin ji.. hahaha then ar... dunno why lo... ann's hand were over leonard neck and i tot she going to kiss him or smt... hahaz.. then who noEs?!? lolz.. leonard go and bao her qi lai.. hahaz... tIaOz... i shocked tio... hahaz... then pearl sae leonard that dae after PE(which consist of straineous exercises that day which is entirely body torturing) carried Ann up from 1st-4th storey leh.. Wah. Hahaz. He so strong ar? Or ann very light? LoLz.. LaMez. CrApz. hahaz... Wadever.

Alright. This month why so relaxed...?? So weird leh. One more month MYE le leh.. Now issiz wad jess said " zhan zhen qian de ping jing" the peace b4 war.. hahahah Lame. Wah.. Althought it's shiok la.. but does it reveals bad sign?? hahaz... then when the "war" comes.. we sure... alot of death ones lo... =x lame.. hahaz... And this month i gonna be broke... hahaz.. Cos ar.. i haf to buy ET, KL & "suddenly cum out" Shuanna bdae present.. Tiaoz.. whahahaz..... the last one i abit xin bu gan qing bu yuan de lo.. hahaz... =x tiaoz... i call him pay 80% wahhahahaha =x LAMEZ... bad hor?? hahaz... WAD I BAD? HUH! tiaoz.. i very gd already.. nv call him pay aLL! =x lame. crapz. But do i seem or look like Im RICH? lolz~ Wahaha. Zzz. Wadever. ET n KL one is cfm one lo.. shuanna one.. is so SUDDEN... hahaha... tiaoz... hahaz.. pearl. u lame la, wad dinner where got husband go wife dun go? wad toking u? lolz... Alright.. hahaz. No wonder the newspaper sae "Bu yao zao lian, zhe zhi hui" wad wad " ni de qing chun..." lolz.. Wadever... Suan le ba... Rang ni ... lalallalalalala... Eh.. wad song is this... OOh... Xu ru yun de.. haha.. Okie. Go le. ByEz.

Tuesday, March 30

hM... HiYeee.. JusT came in to drop a few words... Zzz.. Got homework to do.. so sianz.. and today's P.E. is like HAVOC! -.-'' RuN n rUn n Run.. somemore situp and the wad pushup or wadever... tomorrow morning wake up sure whole body ache like siao. Alright. Counting down to MYE. 1 month's time left. Actually not really one month.. Minus off my leisure time, eating time, sleeping time ...Etcetc... School leh? What's much time left for me to study?? LoLz.. Alright... Missing someone..... hahaz..No wonder people dun encourage students who are studying to go into BGRz... -.-'' HaHaz... Dun care la.. Since im in it le.. Hahaz. But... There is a possibility that we 2 might carry on... till of older age. =x lolz. Weird right? hahaz.. Anyway... i got another blog.. a "shared" blog.... basically btw me n him la.. lame rite? somemore named ecelufu.. it means everlasting love in old english.. whahaha... lame lame.. alrite.. watch TV ... OkIez.. ByEz

Monday, March 29

Woot

Shiok manz.. Early dismissal... WooHoo!!! Cool siaz.. Wah... Sort of envy the Evelyn and Darren Lim's wedding.. So grand and nice.... And so shiok onez.. All their frenz are Mediaworks artisties... PeNgZ... Wahahaz. And they get all sorts of sponsors ranging from the dinner, gowns, furnitures for their new home.. etc etc... LoLz.. It was really grand, 6 years of Ai qing chang pao.. At last, they "joined" the bond. LoLz. Hm.. Im wondering who will i bond with next time.. Wahahahaz, is it possible that it's him? *hmm...* Dunno leh...

School's recently quite relaxing.. Carnival... No homework week... Today early dismissal.. Upcoming Sports' Day of Friday.. And that's a day off too. And next week friday.. Good Friday. Public holiday. Cool manz. And this sat, just hope that teachers don't make us stay back late into the afternoon. I wish to go off by 10, the most. But since we got hardworking teachers like Junus, i don't think that it's possible... LoLz. And for physics.... We are way behind time. Got to finish the syllabus faster.

No one can predict what the future is to be like.. No one... has ever done that accurately. Life... might be meaningful... or tasteless.... It's all in our hands.. How we live it.. Read the xin qi 5 zhou bao. LoLz. About the wad.. Students dating at early age or smt... Hm....Ya... Indeed teenagers nowadays are going into relationships at a much earlier age compared to the days back to our parents' generation. Primary school kids are even into this. Hm.. i really WONDER do they really noe what is it all about? As for me.. I don't know.. Dont ask me that. LoLz. Im not sure myself... Maybe.. indeed Im too young.. or immature to handle such matters..... Hm.. Dunno leh.. But it will be much better to start later than now. But.. Starting later might mean starting a family later, and it means a bigger generation gap between you and your kids. Right? I don't wish that to happen. But in a society like Singapore... Where living standard is so high now, and the birth rates are so low that few are willing to get marry and give birth..? Hahahaz. Maybe it's possible to meet a guy at the age of .. Perhaps... 18? Then both of u are so sure of each other and got married in 2 yrs time and when u are 20, u will have a family... But... I feel that it's a short time. But, it's still possible. Love isnt a matter of time.

Alright. Gonna end off here. Cherish and love the ones around us. Whatever it takes.

Thursday, March 25

Zzzz... Hate this... Haiz... Issiz all my fault? My problem issiz..? Sianz.. Kena scolded by E.T. Sianz.. Sick of it... Haiz.. Asked for money for class tee.. But u think she will gif meh? I bought the longman book oso from the $20 dollars weekly allowance... Kaoz. Then left with few dollars Zzz.. Then still haf to cum with the $16 .... Zzz... Call me take from hongbao $$ ... Zzzz BoDoH... I got alot hongbao $$ issiz? She has much more than what i received okie. Her boss alone gave her $50, which amounts to about half of what i had received u noez?!?!? What the heck... Then sae i anihow spend...? What about her herself? Bought so much shoes in one go. She siao ar? Buy so much shoes for wad? Wear so much meh? Wth. She then anihow spend $$ ar... Say me. I so long nv buy things liao sae i wad save the hongbao money to buy wad idols' stuff. Hey, Mind u.. im not that siao animore okiez. Idiotz. Say me... Kao Kaoz kAoZ! Haiz. And on saturday, think i dun nid buy thing liao lo.. Win liaoz... Then that yeesin sae i ling se? Hahaz. As if i got the extra $$ to spare like that. Wth. Argh, i not as rich as her leh... What u expect.. ? tIaOz.... SiAnZ... Suddenly everything changed... Tomolo going back to MBS, hope that i can make new finds there.. Wahahahaz. Sianz. Must save save save. SAVE!! Serene Tan. Be strong. Stand tall. Study hard. Huh. Idiot ET. Think i what. Im not a chesspiece, easily manipulated by her. Duh.

GoGo. StSy. GoNNa Pia hard for Studies.

Hm.. Im here again. Just back from debate.. LoLz. We lost, but if we met a weaker team, we would have won for sure. Alright....

Read both KL n Pearl blog.. Hm.... Missed out so much things... =x I just write what i feel lo... Dunno leh.. Quite sad actually.. I realised.... not now.. it's just that i dont mention it.. Indeed, i realli those "bei dong" pattern de... Haiz. Not good rIghT? Haiz. I MUST change into a better person. Just feel like crying it all out. Haiz. Everything is just tightly... Locked up. Right into me. Maybe one day, i might just burst like a balloon... ? LoLz. If i had the chance to forget the past, I wouldnt do that lo... Maybe... Im wrong...? Hm.. Forget about it.. Not going to mention it.... Sianz.

Argh. Feel like killing that Ys. So... Irritating.. What has it got to do with her what i do with him? ....... Lamez. Feeling kind of left out.. Zzzz... Im feel tt im weird... Now the way of me typing and expressing myself... is abit way of normal..... Hahahaz. Haiz. I just dun haf the courage to raise the topic... Zzz... Why why why.. ArgH... Alright.. Think this is going to be swallowed down into me again... Sianz

Wednesday, March 24

PeNgzPeNg!

WaHaHaHaz. Think im gonna write up a biography.. Wahahaz.. Now then i suddenly realised how fun was my primary school life was.. Wahahaz.. Saw some seniors wrote in Friendster.. Wahahaz.. That they had to bow 3 times when crossing thru the hall when they going to toilet.. Wahahahaz.. and think of it when u are urgent!! whahahaa..~

LaMe... He so hardworking sia.. Highlight words in compo book..~ lolz.. somemore want to memorise them... LoLz.. Sometimes how i wish i half as hardworking as him sia.. Wahahaz.. Okie. Im off.. Pengz.. Wahahaz. That KL ar... I mean.. Waaha... Whoever gif me the leaflet i sure throw de... No matter what lo.. =x lolz..~ No offence leh..~ kekex... Not meant to be saved then suan le.. Wahahaz.. My daddy last time christian school de leh.. study bible and stuffs.. waahahahaz.. then he dun wan study le.... -.-'' Alright...~ Yeesin said smt... Wahahaz.. Hm.... Break-up dun anihow gua zai zui pian... hm.. Hm......... Oh ya.. Friday.. i thinking of going back MBS!! MISSED MY PRIMARY SCHOOL!!! =D ... Alright...Wootz. At last can see him le.. Saturday..~ Wootz! YaY! =x kekeke . ByE!

Tuesday, March 23

Woot. Slept for... 30minutes or so.. Wahahaz. Quite energized... But hungry manz... Wahahaz... Predicted.. That fellow sleeping away... Lolz.. no tutorials mah.. of cos sleep la.. LoLz.. That's y is x|aozhu mah... lolz..~ i sleep until some idiots students dunno from wad sch.. toking n hitting the bball downstairs so loudly.. idiotic manz..~ wake me up.. BodOH!!!! ArgH. LoLz. Alright.. Think i go do english journal..ByEz

Hiyeee....~ Hump~!

SOO............. Tired today sia.. Luckily there wasnt much homework.. Only the english journal writing to do only.. Phew... Had P.E. today... Cha yi dian died due to the heat and exhaustion.. Wahahaz.. I was on the verge of giving up liaoz... Just feel like going to toilet and do business =x lolz.~ But.. in the end.. i just run lo.. no choice ma.. what to do.. somemore that ms thia today face like so black..~ lolz..~ Run until i realli want to du xue liao... Pengz.. Why my face so RED?!?!?! after the P.E.. Wahahaz. It seems like im the REDDEST in class..~ pengz... like nao cong xue... =x lolz..~

Great great.! Friday we gonna have a early school dismissal!! YeaH!! -.-'' but all because of our school carnival..~ lolz..~ Wadever... dismiss early good.. But on friday... Sports' day for fuchun sec. lolz~ and he will be stuck there... till 5-6+ lolz~ PeNgZ..~ GrEat... Wahahaz. At last can see him on Saturday.. lolz... but... Hm... Idiot manz.. Why they dun accept CASH!?!?!?!? -.-'' Then i nid to buy tix leh.. So MA FAN!!!! bOdOh one school.. onli want to cheat $$ want ppl at a go buy a tix at 10 dollars!! ... Zzzz.... Alright..~ ByEz...~ think i go oink oink... TirEd sIaZ!! And remember to watch XJSN next monday. The story is getting weirder and weirder these days.. See until i BLUR* LoLz.. Alright.. Go le..~

Monday, March 22

yOzyOz...~ LoLz... i alot of things to say leh. i don't know where should i start from. okie. let's start from what i saw just now. LoLz. Just now was walking home with Pb. Wahahaz. then in front of us. that couple again... LoLz. Everytime ta qing ma qiao onez... Know who is them? U should know liao. Wahahaz. And they are. The Ann & Leonard lo.. Who else? LoLz. Pb say see them "hit" each other ar..... Can vomit... LoLz. =x -.-'' tiao ... Wahahaz. So lame manz. I see until i bth.. keep on laughing.. -.-'' So funny one they 2. -_-'' hahaz . Anyway, that was normal ... eh.. rice for all of us in 4e1 liaoz. hahaz. See until sianz liaoz.

Alright. Back to ME! =x LoLz. Food tasting. So lame sia.. They toking about the... "ping li" Wahahaz. i was laughing my head off manz.. My jiefu de jiefu... Wahahaz. Sae "you two ar, mus note it down oso. Teochew must gif wad wad wad... " Wahahaz. Somemore say, all the information save in diskette better.. then can pass to us.. -.-'' wahhahahaz..,.. Next time i get married i sure die... Wahahaz. Or i will hire a wedding planner. Or i becum the wedding planner myself. Hahaz.
O.k.i.e. Next event. LoLz.=x I lame right? =x -_-'' Okie. One more day passed. Saturday. Day after food tasting. Wootz~. His uncle wedding dinner. I've got a full dressed rehearsal for the innov8 and celebr8 thingy. Wootz. He even thought of asking his parents ask can call me along anot... LoLz. But before he got the chance to ask, his grandma ask him to bring his gf along... LoLz.~ Wootz. Hm.. We two ar... Lolz. Like realli mus call Bo-fu Bo-mu that kind liaoz. Lolz~ Cartoon sia. First time like that. =x -.-'' Wahahaz. =x Tiaoz. Then somemore his uncle n aunt asked him where is me leh... tiaoz. then he obviously sae that i got smt on lo.. then cannt go... hahaz, the most "interesting" part is that hahaz... they asked him to let them see me next time.... LoLzzz...~

Alright. Think if i drag longer u are going to kill me? yAz? Hahaz. =P ... Lolz... Whatever, im going to continue... about him =x kekekekex. Lolz. Yesterday was "sms-chatting" with him.. Lolz... Suddenly dunno why tok about hair.. He said cut until like.. Small kid.. Wahahahaz. =x .... alrite.. here goes...

me: hahaz. u cut ur hair again..lolz. =x wun la. small kid cute wad? hUh? agree? hahaz. =D ^-^
he: Haha... Eek but mi not kid... Zzz throw small kid face... Lol... Haha... u lei? Keep short or long hair?
me: dunno leh... see first lo... =p. long hair so ma fan.. u try keeping long hair lo.. whaahahaz =x
he: Haha... Keep long hair then i can play wif it =x ... Let u know later u dun keep le... Haha..
< then my face was like... okie... -.-'' hahahaa... ya .. why humans like to play with hair ar? lolz.~ cos i love doing that too! =x >
he: Haha... Cannot i keep ah... My DM help mi cut ah... Haha.
me: O.o hahaz. tiaoz. keep long hair... hm.....
he: Hehe... So muz keep long hair hor? Very ma fan ah? Nvm lo... I take care of ur hair haha.. Lol... Nvm up to you... Hehe ..aniwae ~ short or long hair i also find it nice.. Hehe
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Hahaz... he ar.. -.-'' hahaz. everytime sae these kind of words... .wahahhaz... wadever... hehehehx..

WAH!!! BIG NEWS!!!! MARIO!!! PROMOTED TO MANAGER OF OBS!!!! WOOTZ Wahahahaahz. My OCS camp instructor.~ Wootz! Wah.. He so pro neh... Wahgahahaz.. His style of walking... Wahahaz. And i remembered him saying me like to listen to "pork song" then i was like... WTH!?!?!?!? -.-'' Pop la. Then he somemore say Not halal la. we cannt hear.. WTH!??!?! Lolz..~ Wah.. Shocked shocked plus more SHOCKED!!!! He manager of OBS!! LoLz.. Okie. i shutup liao..~ wAHAHAHAA =x

ByEz!!!!! MisS hIm LotSz + MoRe LotSz...~ =x hehehex i sot liao.. as u noe? yAz? LoLz

Saturday, March 20

Hm... A song.. that i came across my MBS best frenz bloggy.. lolz

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Hm.... Nice lyrics ar? lolz. lame. =x

Hm... tiaoz... His family... so good sia.. lolz.. So predicted.. Today is his uncle wedding mah... lolz.. His relatives all ask him to call me go tonight.... LoLz.. How i wish i could go manz....~ But... Wad excuses can i say? Pengz. Haiz. My family somemore so OBJECT!!!!!!! me having bf de.. What can i do? -_-'' Haiz. Lolz. Sometimes if they were be more "open-minded" abit good liao..... Haiz.

Gosh i still have lotsa homework left for me to finish up.. Zzz...~ Alright then.. I go makan liao...~ Hm.. Food tasting yesterday... Rather good worz. Except that idiot... Cream of Walnut... Pengz. i dun like... lolz. cos i dun like walnut.. hahahahahahz. =x okie then... Hm.. Why did i keep missing him?? lolz... okie byEz

Thursday, March 18

Hm... haiz... Are we drifting apart....? Hopes not. But maybe... What the book says might come true? Nah. It won't. Hm.. March now. Few more months to ... our first O level paper in late May. Hahaz. Haiz. Is it just that im too..... Sensitive? hahahahahahhaz... =x

Zzz.... I really really feel that i should start my revising and stuffs now. LoLz. Hm.. Sometimes... CO is so relaxing.. But sometimes.. it really "su*ksz" =x Hahaz. Perhaps... Im mad.. Ya im mad. Im abnormal. Right? -.-'' Lame. Haiz. Argh. Bad mood. Why am i always "eating" up all the feelings that overflowing in me? Hm.. Really missed him badly. hahaz. His baby photo..Aw... Cute sia! lolz. Just feel like going and squeeze his face manz.. Chubby chubby de..hahaaz... =x =D lolz.

Aw... Yesterday at library.. 7++ pm. Pengz. I just feel that someone is going to look for me. Hahaz. And i thought the someone is my family or smt. lolz. But who knows, it's HIM! -_-'' =x LoLz. HE really freaked me out manz. I thought he went back home. -_-'' Ya, he did went back home, to fetch his baby photos ... -_-'' LoLz. hAhAz! Hm.. I was thinking about a 2pid qns in the Amaths TYS, suddenly a pair of hands on my shoulders. "Who the hell is that?" I thought that it was E.T. hahaz. But i turned... Hahaz. It's HIM!!! You know! HIM!. O.T.W. -_-'' Wah liew... Freaked me out sia... Really gave me a heart attack. Hahaz.

Alright... Haiz... Are we really drifting apart? Hm... *wonders*

Okie okie. Im gonna go and bath now. HaHaz. I very dirty hor? so late liao haven bath yet. Zzz..Sianz. Haiz. Haiz... haiz haiz haiz.~ ='(

Tuesday, March 16

Actually.. Love...? What is it all about... Exact definition? None. Hahaz. What i posted is something i got from the net.. Quite meaningful.. Might hace read it before i think.

Why hold someone back... when u know u don't love them...
Why keep them to yourself... when u know you won't wanna have them?
Why let them miss other chances...when they can have them?
If you really don't love someone....let them go...hurt them NOW... not later...for a longer relationship builds stronger emotions...

A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love and two people.

Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.

Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time.That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved. Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person can ever have.And there's a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle,wild and short-lived and one that's tender and passionate,nurturing and lasts a long time. The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us,takes work because it's about keeping a relationship.

Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other. Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop. Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed. Respect him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better. The power of true love to a person is undeniable. A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them. The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.

"Love is like an antique vase. It's hard to find, hard to net, but easy to break." Every day everywhere, people fall in love ... but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense! feeling of falling in love? I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words "I love you"... but more often than not, the truth is just I am IN love with you. There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship... where both were only IN love with each other. But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in
the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it,you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love. It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. Let your heart guide u. May you be blessed on your soul-searching journey = for your soul mate.

ARE YOU REALLY IN LOVE? ASK YOURSELF!
Is this true love? Do I really love him/her? Or izzit just another infatuation? R U willing to give? Even though you may not get back the same amount you gave? R U cheating yourself? Thinking that you really love him/her and not just taking him/her as a substitute for your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?

Friends, let today be the day....... you truly understand love....... If after reading this and answering all the questions,you are very sure that you love him/her,tell him/her that. Let him/her know how much you love him/her and that you are willing to take the risks of being hurt by him/her in the course of the development of your relationship with him/her. This is a love that's sacrificial, R
U ready for it? If you accept someone's philosophy that is simply their rationalisation to justify their failure, you accept their failures!"

**The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.** If you think something will make you happy, go for it. **Remember that we pass this way only once.**

Hm... Woot.
Feeling : So Cold... Brrr........ Freezing cold.
Current location : Gab hse. Time now: 6.54pm.
Mood : Weird. =x

Hm.... Haz. Weird? Im weird? Maybe...... I don't know. Maybe he's busy or something... Who knows? He seems "cold", you know? Hahaz. Haiz. What more can i say? Hm.... Baked some stuff with gab. hahaz. Had some fun though. Hm.. She chased me with her cat in her hands. =( trying to freak me out with it. Hahaz. Lame. yaz? =x Weird way of typing .... Hm... Think i have to sort of my thinkings...... So mixed up....... FAN AR~~~~~ -.-'' hahaz.

Sunday, March 14

yOz...

Hm.. Friday had a "quarrel" with him. Or should i say.... Mood swing or something...? Hm... He ... Haiz... Dunno leh.. I was really SAD! Haiz.. Nearly cried lo.... Haiz... He said that he feel that erm...... it seems like.... is a xian hua cha zai nu fen sheng ... Lame right? but then... hm..... Ya.. And he's been studying so hard cause he's sort of stressed due to me... im like a goal to him.. that's what he said.... Hm.... Then... I dunno lo... I first time experienced this kind of feeling.. so hurt... and qi gek.... it's like... wah piang... is really my heart.... so... "pain"... all the feelings....... Hm..... It's aint his fault.. He didnt meant to hurt me or something.. Im just.. hurt... at what he had said... He's sorry for what he had said.. But aint those his true feelings? How contradicting, right? Hm... Haiz... But.. so far... I can really feel... his love towards me.... A feeling i never got before..... And ... i will love him.. unless my heart tells me it's time to stop... But would it ever tell me to do that? Hm.. Don't think so. Unless one day, he stops loving me.

How i wish my family would allow me to have a boyfriend... Hm... But sometimes thinking of it.. If they were to allow... Will i treasure the relationship? Yupz, I will always. No matter what happens.. even though the road is tough..... full of obstacles... I will fight our way through... hand-in-hand with him.

Friday, March 12

Hm... Haiz. What the heck. Argh. Hate this. Argh. Argh. Argh. What do he thinks. Did he meant something by saying that? I don't know. Argh. I must suppress all these feelings DOWN! Argh. Everytime something happens... Im bound to swallow everything down... Hahaz. And. Bottle up everything? Haz. Alright. Im going. Should i.....? Hahaz.

Monday, March 8

YoZyOz! First time using this.. Dun really know how it works... Hahaz.. I had a hard time finding it..~ Hm... Lolz... Leonard first thing cum n sae to me this morning... -.-'' "Serene, ni de nan peng you bu zuo leh.. " I was like.. " LoLz..okie.. ^-^" Lolz.. then he sae he shuai leh.. lolz.. HaHAz.. im just testing out this.. hahaz.. ByEz....

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