Sunday, January 23

Hiya. Ohiyo gozaimasu.


Hmx.. Forget to add something.. I lost my necklace yesterday. =( I dint realise it till i was about to board the shuttle service to Clementi mrt. Haiz. It's not my day.... I've been unlucky for two days. =( Firstly my toe knocked into the edge of the table. Then the whole skin dropped out. -.-'' Crappy. Then this incident... =( ... lolx..~ Alright. Nothing much. Im just exxagerating. Keke. Haiz.. Alright. Dint had a good sleep too. And oh ya.. My room... become blue and pink le.. Hahaz.. =x Gonna add more pink-ish stuff into my room (since one side has been painted pink.. -_-'' lolx ) TaTaz. Going to cwp. So sianz. Feel like going orchard to get some new clothes. Haiz..


yanz.takecare.everyonex..

Saturday, January 22

Yoohoo~


Went to NgeeAnnPoly today. I wrote NP, my frenz thought that i went Northpoint. -_-'' Lolx. Hmx... Alright. In summary, i went to NP with Lester,Wingz and Joel lo. Quite crappy lo... Tok crapz all along the way. Hahaz. Then. wad eh... Shuaige? Erm.. never go see.. hahaz.. Alright basically took the goodie bag which has lotsa things in it which luckily it dint give way when it's so heavy. Then went to the Life sciences faculty and i realised that my secondary school dint gave us enough supplementary stuff to do on... =( Then got the biscuit in liquid nitrogen, tried it.. the lady put in on my hand. Ya, really feel it freezing my hand as well. hahaz.. All the smoke. Pearl, u should try that since u love them LOLx. Hmx.... Sad leh.. Can i visit anyone house on CNY Day 1? I have nothing to do on that day.. Sad know... Haiz.. Still remembered what happened that day.. Who i was with... Doing wad.... Where were we...


Hmx..~ whoever reading this.. If free on CNY day 1.. Tell me okie? I go ur house bai nian.. Lolx..~ =X Hmx..~ Actually... JC life really alot of work lo.... Stressed up... =( But then.. I still love the people here... Everyone makes up the Innova culture. Hahaz. Hm... gtg.. byExxx...

tata.missya.

Friday, January 21

Hoho.. hi.. Hari Raya today. quite sian to be stuck at home.. Alright.. Let me recapped on what I've done last few days.


Wednesday 19/1/05 Fairly fine day. Went for my shooting trial at CDANs with Jialing. LoLx. Really fun. We happened to be abit late. But luckily they havent started yet. We started off figuring out which is our master eye, which mine happened to be left which is a worst combination for a right-handed with a left master eye. But luckily they dint eliminated right at the start because of that. Hmx. Luckily i was sitting right infront since i was late, thus im in the first group to start the course =) Alright. My first item was the air rifle. The bullets we were using were lead bullets. Thus, the lady instructor warned us that we must wash our hands after meddling with all these as eating them will caus wad birth defects, etc etc... Wadever that got to do with the sexual reproductive system. Lolx. Alright wadever. Started off by learning how to take the pistol. Tot it was light but it wasnt. lolx. But it's really cool la. Air pistol hahaz. Then we practised shooting by sitting down lo.. Cos she want us to know how to aim first ma. Then okie la. It's better this way cos u dun need to support the pistol. Quite okie la. My practise shots are always better than my test shot. Hahaz.


eek. stupid eileen. dun let me blog. =( idiot. wadever. going to update againz. ByExxx


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Tuesday, January 18

Hiya peeps. It' s already some sort of my 3nd week in IJC... Quite fun overall. Actually. I dont know la. I just cant help but to feel... all sorts of weird feelings la. i dunno how to describe lo. but.. it's crappy la. i jus dislike having this kind of feeling la. noone to talk to lo.. kinda sad la... haiz. just did a survey. lolx it mentioned that i had a blue heart. it was absolutely correct on my situation now. lolx. depressed. and.. wad eh? forget le. cant be bothered to put it down here. Hmx. Wad else to say? I forget everything that i got in mind just now. My sis interrupted my flow of thinkings. =( Haiz. Everyday there's loads of work to be done. I can say that workload is two to three times more than secondary sch life. Saddening right? And there are lecture notes for us to read up.. And revise. Ya. We HAVE to REVISE. If not, im sure that next day in lecture, you will end up like a housefly buzzling about with no rest. Ya. That's why I busied myself to so many things. I tried hard. Not to think. But i just cant. Why why why... ? ... Haiz. Crapz. Yuppiex. Im going for shooting course tomorrow. I really want to get into the team la. Wish me good luck k? Lolx. I just need something to get it off my mind. Haiz. My class has a nice bunch of gals. The guys are just too quiet? Or just that they everytime m.i.a. except for kenneth? Lol. Maybe that's becos we same OG la. That's why la. Hahaz. Hmx. Hm.. I just wonder does she feels the same way as i do... ? Weird huh.. I wonder does she visits my blog... I don't know la. Zzz. I shallnt elaborate more. I just feel like crying la. But, I just couldnt. Everything is just trapped inside me, just like how the iodine molecules are trapped inside the helical structure of amylose. Because of this, it just stains everything blue-black. Just like my days. It makes my world grey. Thus, for every moment i spent in school. I try to get someone to be with me la... I just.. I dunno la. I know Im mean to be like that. =x Sorry. Lolx. At this moment now, I just hate being alone. But i think some breathing space is good too? Hm.. Wish that the school admin set up some quiet spots for studying ASAP. The canteen is like.. Crapz la.. So noisy. Haiz.... And you, cant you change ur phrase to something else rather than " tell u dun think too much le... " ... zzz.. Sorry. I know im being unreasonable. I am unreasonable. That's me. I know Im not being myself. Im being weird. Haiz.....

Saturday, January 15

Hiya. Whole body aching. Zz. Had the briefing on shooting yesterday. Zz. Must pay money again.. $12 leh. But im determined to go into shooting lo. Kinda wishing that I can go into the CCA and be part of the school team. Hahaz. You must think that im crazy la. Shooting so easy meh? So many of us signed up for it. Dengx. Wish me good luck!! And that i have the hidden talent in shooting. Lolx. Then went to Woodlands Sport Hall to play badminton with guansheng,jueyi,kenneth,joel,sweesien. Dengx. Im the only girl. -.-'' That esther lo.. dun wan go. But nvm, it was fun. And at least i get to work out more and sweat more and lose more fats. Lolx. Im fat okiex? Dun argue with me. HMph. And ya. That's why i got an aching right hand today. Eek. And there's P.E. on Monday. Argh. Hope that Ms Chua is just like Ms Thia. As fun-loving and encourages us and make P.E. super fun! =)


Had my timetable. Sad lo... Everyday.. 5.30pm manz except on CCA days (Wed and fri... ) But with CCA on, I dun think i get to reach home early too. Hahaz. Hmx.. eh... mental block. Oh ya. Subscribed to the TIME magazine. Is it worth my money? Hahaz. I better read them when they arrive in my mailbox. Hehex. Haiz.. I still have tons of work left on my table that needs to be done. Biology structured n essay qns... ( this reminds me of the funny Mr. Azarha who is lactose-intolerant who drinks HL milk and soy bean milk whom we students say that he drinks HL milk cos it's High in Calcium, Low in Fat. LOLX =x And he satisfy all the criteria for..... Erm. I dun remember. Insoluble in water. Wadever. Biology is fun with him around =D ) And maths t3 which I cant solve almost half of the qns. Crapz. And chemistry t1 which i've been trying to do for the past 2 hrs. I do admit im poor in Chem and Maths. Haiz. =x Hm..


Im feeling better... Which so many programs occupying all my thinking time.... and with that unique moment. lolx. bet u guys dunno wad i toking. Hmx. Feel much better. =) But Im still on my normal habits. Regardless of where am i, during lectures, before i sleep... Whatsoever. Dengx. Do i have to kick this habit or ..... i don't know how u call it too... ? It's up to me to decide then. Hmx. Im really crapping. A bit sot sot today. Sorry about that. Hm. And i need to earn $$ . Crapz. $20 class fund, $12 shooting. That's costing me a bomb. Perhaps or most prob. Gonna get someone to pei wo to sign up for the banquet thingy. Hmx.. Alright. Go le.. ByEx... tAke caRe evEryoNex..


luv_always_yanz

Thursday, January 13

hohox. tml friday le.. cool leh.. had p.e todayx. crapz la... dun really like p.e. lo... cos had ... how you spell that... stitches? dunno la.... my heart prob acting up again la. crapz.. =\ haiz...

lalaz.. went back to woodgrove todayx.. lolx..~ fun la.. met up with 4e1 ppl... haiz... but really.. crapz la... all asked me how's my bf.... =\ Hmx. What else? then went to CO lo... lolx.. saw mr low.. THE CO ROOM IS SUPER SMELLY... hope they do something about it. LOLx. And woodgrove is doing repainting works. Dengx.. make until so nice after i graduate... Crapz lo.. So unfair.. =( Haiz... Why i keep hai-ingx? CRAPZ LA.. Thou i act like i dont care lo, but i just really cant heck care lo. Haiz.. go le byex

Tuesday, January 11

yox peeps... dunno's who been reading my blog oso.. hahaz...


sianz ar... lectures and more lectures... I realised my maths is really hopeless lo.. hOw?!?!? forget some of the indices law le.. kekex.. Then got the GP lecture.. Quite sianz lo.. Cos now everything introductory only... So it's kinda boring lo. Feel kinda bad lo.. It somehow looks like i gu yi dun wan look at his direction lo. Then nv like "greet" back also. sorry abt that. Crapz. So tired yet im still typing somemore in the dark with the monitor shining so brightly. Glaring rays into my eyes. -_-'' Should i go for Physics and Amaths tml? Sneak go in? lolx. Later kena find out i die. Hahaz. Dunno lo.. Thinking of changing subj combi, changing to trip. sci. Cos physics at least is something that i dun need to memorise that much. And that MTA. Dint even has a lesson on it at all. Bet that most ppl taking it took Higher MT at O lvl. Then i would be the odd one out.


Actually.. wadever i wrote here.. Somehow, i still restrained myself from revealing too much of my feelings lo. I dont wish to affect anyone's feelings or something. Haiz. Im really falling into a abyss... I dont seem to be able to get out of it. Maybe i should i cling on to there.. Stuck there... ? -_-'' Aint that wasting my time.. ? I dont know lo. Hmx. And oh please... Stop letting me see things that i dont want to see. Though i know i dont have the rights or anything to be upset over it... but... oh please.. seeing the scenes.. make me feel really upset lo. My mood will just go poom. Right down into the cold lake. It will just freezes. But, I know, this cant be prevented at all. Not at a single bit lo. Maybe i should try to suppress my feelings. Im really not in a mood for studying right now. BUT I HAVE TO STUDY. alright... I better go sleep. And why cant i just stop thinking about it... ??


still.missing.you.haiz.
yanz.nitex.everyone.

Monday, January 10

yox.. peeps.. first day of official schooling. dun really like la... =( wun be able to clash lessons with u liaoz... lolx.. dengx... haiz. i should stop myself from thinking this way... haiz... why do i look so happy on the surface..!??!!?!? KAoz... dunno lo.. i sot sot de.. how i wish that i could be like Weiling today... lolx.. like sot tiao liaoz... she crying whole day in the canteen worx.... =(


i cant help but stealing glances at you. -.-'' hopeless me. eh someone just block my view k? lolx. suan le.. i rather being like that...... continue my same old me..... nitex...~ cant blog le...

Sunday, January 9

Hmx.. Last day of orientation has passed. I've been posted to 1so2 i think... taking bio,chem,mta,maths c. Hmx. 3 days has passed since 6/1/05. Haiz. To think that i could still joke around... talk crapz with others. Hmx. Maybe im used to all these, used to putting on "the mask" =\ LoLx. Kinda awkward lo if i met y.o.u. along e way or something. Im just not used to it. Just have not gotten over it. Life still goes on. The world doesnt stop changing.


Went to gab's house yesterday for steamboat. Hm. Rather paiseh lo.. have to ask Gab to pei wo to walk to busstop. Lolx. Cos it's like 10pm+ le.. Then mus walk frm her block to the busstop. Eek. Just dont like the feeling of walking alone thru the neighbourhood. Lolx. Im just a typical little girl, who just needs some care,love and concern. Dengx. Sorry. Im crapping again. Quite bored now thus i "resorted" to blogging. Erm. If i could just turn back time, I would rather that i wouldnt see y.o.u. that day and crapz-ed. No use of regrets. Nothing could save me, except myself. Hmx.... I do sound optimistic huh? -_-'' Lalala... My habits haven't changed at all. I still continue to think of y.o.u. etc. Hmx. What to do. -_-'' School officially starts next week. Just hope that I''ll get a good start. Y.o.u. take care okie? Tataz, everyone. Nash rocks on forever! Innova Jc had a good orienation for the freshmen. Just that the time organisation wasnt that well on the campfire night. We couldnt get to dance around the campfire. ='( or sing around it. That was bad, for me. It was my first campfire okay? Lolx. I need to dry my tears. Tidy up my feelings. Tataz. Everyone gambatte for whatever you're doing! =)

Thursday, January 6

BARN and zh,zw, my frenz who visits this blog. DUN TAG AT MY TAGBOARD!


okie crapz. i really dunno wad to sae right now. tomorrow's the last day of orientation camp. ya. trust. i do. but i just cant..... it seems that everything is playing a trick on me.......... going bonkers i think. shld i be filled with sadness or hatred... ? crapz... i both oso dun wanx... =\ haiz......

in fact, i've been a bad mood since.. just now i think.. ? seeing him & his frenz lo... sorrie. misunderstanding. really sorry for that. i shouldnt have that thinking. did i hurt u or smt...? really sorry. haiz... i dunno wad the heck im thinking lo... maybe perhaps this thing has dragged too long. Really dont know wad to say now. My mind is of a blank right now. The pain is too raw. I wish that i could cry like nobody's business but, I cant. I just cant. I cant even force myself to do that. Really headache lo. Crapz. My heart pain is coming up again. I think i shouldnt get myself too stressed up. Ew. Gotta rest. Be back tomorrow if i could.

single @ 8.26pm. 6 of January 2005.

eeek. bad mood now. that freak. really hate the freak lo. i doubt u noe who im referring to lo... FREAKO!!!! ......

Monday, January 3

Yupxx. Yox everyone out there. Today's the first day of school. Thought that we were early to set off at 7.15am. But alas, we were wrong! Hmx. The road was pretty muddy lo.. Cos it was still raining in the morning but it stopped, YeaHx! Just for the Innovians. Coooooool ? Hahaz. Ya. Indeed. I love my group, NaSh. You gUys rOcks! Woohoo. Yupx, im in the same group as Esther. Kinda lazy to write. Too much to carry on. Yupx. Total intake at Innova Junior College is 600+ , if i didnt hear wrongly.


Alright, went there in the morning with Esther. Saw super diferrent classes of students there, a no. of Cedar Girls' , one TKGS, one Nanyang Girls', guys from Catholic High, dozens from Riverside, then some from Tanglin Sec.. the rest.. i forget le.. Lolx..~ I went off looking around lo.. Then happen to saw y.o.u. .. then... i like dun dare see so much la.. then went off lo... Stand at the super attention seeking parade square.. Cos starting no people de lo... Lolx..~ then since haven start mah.. So me and Esther went around lo.. Look about.. Then i extra lo... Want to go toilet for fun... =x Then i pushed open the toilet door, it came crashing down on ME!!! AND IT HIT ME!!! hit my head. So pain know? Head concussion sia..~ Then it's like nobody see lo.. everyone toking... Looking at themselves at the mirror... So sad right? Lolx.. Then i tried to stuck the dropped-off door for support at the toiletpaper stand there lo.. then go out le. Then waited everything to settle lo... The names of the OG are named after the stars... Super alot of stars lo.. That why our theme is A star is born, Genesis. Then what did we do? Erm. Must be that crash on my head doing things. Making me go dizzy. Hm... Aiya.. then forget wad le.. cham..


some other icebreaking games lo.. created our cheer... It goes... the marching part... left left left right left.... 1 i cant u hear or smt.. =x forget... 2.3.4. then 1234.. then bang ur foot... then stomp.. lolx.. then most funny part is the yandao yandao thingy lo.. the girls.. no sound one. =x Lolx..~ Aiya.. Paiseh ma. hahaha... Had catered lunch.. Hmx.. okie la... abit dry nia.. hahaz.. Had the subject combi talks at SSS, it was a really nice place lo.. It looks so peaceful and elegant lo.. hahaz..~ Then... I dint even realise that im sitting sorta next to y.o.u. lo.. Dengx. Esther was sitting right beside y.o.u. but she didnt even know it. -_-'' Hmx.. Then made our flag. hahaz. The arrowhead so cute de... LoLx..~


To summarise.... Innova rocks cos it got a good mix of people... A good whole bunch of Innovians.... It just rocks. The tshirt is super stylo milo too! Lolx..~ NasH rOckS!!! byExxx!!

Saturday, January 1

Yoz Peeps..! Happy New Year Everyone! First day of a new year, a brand new start. Welcome to 2005.


It's been fast... 16 years... 2005 le... So fast. Everything passes so fast... The first time i learnt to walk... to talk... The first day i went to register for PAP kindergarden.. The first time i saw my teachers' at MBS. The very first step i had into Woodgrove secondary school wearing the toottoot sailormoon uniform which i used to think that it was... ( I just love it lo... Hahaz, it looks so super cute! ) The first family i created, Barn. The first ever surprise party i had (Not really a surprise.. lolx.)


The first moment i saw y.o.u. ... I knew it aint gonna be that simple...



Yupx... 2005. A brand new year. From now, we part from our secondary school life, it makes me feel more worse. Dont you think so? Indeed. We must always cherish whoever are by our side, but, thought i always say that. Somehow... the knot is still tightly tied inside my heart which thousands of rocks are stacking on it, blocking off any chances for it be to untied.


Memories are the only thing that wont go missing regardless of who enter and leave your life... The only thing that can be tugged safely in our hearts, without fearing that someone would come and snatch those special moments away from you.... To be frank, indeed im feeling sad. I think you should know why. Firstly, some personal reasons that some of u guys know. Secondly, the tsunami disaster that caused deaths of 80000+ people. It makes us wonder... Why? What makes life so fragile? Why had it happened right at this holiday season? They called it a 1226 disaster. There was the 911 terrorist attack a few years back then. What is actually happening to us humans? And our Mother Earth. I wonder why humans nowadays dont really treasure others and their own lives. Indeed, me too.


So what are my new year wishes? Im not sure too. But generally, they are...
1. World peace! \/
2. Good grades for my O lvl results when i get it in Feb'05.
3. Good grades for my year1 promo results. lolx. sae so fast tiaox.!
4. Last of all... I shallnt say it out. lolx. Love makes the world goes around.. may everyone be loved and love... =)


Alright... Now is 3.44am le of 1/1/04... ooPs.. is 1st Jan 2005. Lolx.. Im going. Bye peeps. Miss you guys always. Muackx.


luv barn,frenx,cuz,y.o.u. always. Nitex. Nono.. Good morning! Ohiya gozaimasu. =) All the best in everything you do.

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