..__=What is essential is invisible to the eye=__..
Sunday, December 5
yupx.. im back online again.. been out for these few days.. continuously .... sianz...
kinda troubled... since the end of o lvls till now... i still cant find a solution to it.... been chasing after the show... say yes enterprise.... it had somehow given me some " qi shi " .. kakaz... indeed.. why not be happy when i could be ..... ? but burden myself with all these crapz... ? im not being hack care... i just... cant do anything about it..... But. Im just confused, sad, be it jealous or not ...
i need to get a life. indeed. the theme of pearl's blog. lease a new life... adapt a new way of life... a new world...
nothing much more for me to say ... cant bring myself to say what's deep down inside me... it would just swallow me up... into a world of darkness .. which ... i don't wish to sink into it again... I hate being in tears without apparent use.... what's more left for me to say .... ? i just wish to get back to the same old way of my life... But... i know i just have that anymore.... never ever .....
unless... a miracle would happen this xmas of 2004. i thought this year would be different.. but .. ya .. just different in a matter that i would be feeling empty....
signing off... serene.
p.s. why wouldnt you just grant me that little wish of mine... ? escaping is of no use... haiz... nitex.
eneres _ _ _ * 10:06 PM